friends once i've got friends... kawan... school mates... back then... i always keep in touch with them... antor kad birthday... kad raya... good luck... telepon²... jln² sesamer time cuti.. time rayer jer kami jln² sesame member satu kelas gi umah kawan² yg buat open house... kdg² aku sanggup teman member jln² walaupun kat umah ader org dtg.. ader nak pigi memaner ker.. but time pass by and everything change... once i asked my mother... naper tak ke umah sedara mara... mak aku kata diorg pun tak penah dtg ke umah buat aper nak gi umah diorang, i don't think i liked her answer... mak aku pun slalu tanyer... slalu sgt gi umah kawan... nape kawan tak penah dtg umah... diorg ader la dtg... tapi lepas aku paksa gak.. tu pun sorg dua jer.. aku cakap diorg sibuk, balik kg, segan, tak der member lain yg nak diajak sekali, nak tgk tv... citer best, takut ngan perent aku, malu dll seperti yg depa kata... aku slalu pegi umah mereka time depa ajak... yer laa takut kecik hati member lak.. tapi depa tak lak jejak kaki kat umah aku... one day.. depa pi gathering kat satu umah member aku ni... tanpa mengajak aku... dah penat² beraya... sorang member ni tepon... "ari tu aku ngan budak² ni..nun.. gi umah dak ni haa... lalu kat ngan umah ko.. lepas² sampai sana aku lupa langsung ttg ko.. best kat sana jumpa budak ni..nu..no.. pahtu kami gi umah budak tuh lak... pahtu gi sini lak...sana lak..aku nak singgah umah ko tapi dah lewat..." since that day... i've never phone.. post greetings card, just be alone... dan depa pun mmg tak ingat kat aku gak agaknyer... aku tunggu depa dtg umah aku tiap kali raya sejak zaman sekolah lagi... tapi tak der pun... kalau ader pun.. aku mmg terkejut sbb ader gak org ingat kat aku... cam best nyer... cam nak melompat² gitu... tapi jarang... aku rasa aku tak buat silap pun kat depa...i wonder what friends are for?

maybe depa tak berapa suka dtg umah aku sbb ala-ala sopan-santun kat umah aku... depa tak leh gelak jerit²... cam sivik siot... cam aku gak sivik skit, kdg² rasa cam bendul... seme org cakap ayah aku hot tempered... tapi skg dah lain...sejak ader cucu nih... slalu buat org gelak... walaupun kdg² cam kena sindir jer... anyway his my father... can not blamed him... those old days makes him like that maaa... and my pass life makes me like this.. like what arr...?