Apa itu putus asa...? iyer.. kalau mengenangkan perkara² yg dah lepas... But let's not talk about the past, what's done is done, we should take care of the present and most especially 'bout the future... But how am I going to talk about the future while I still got this great deceit that still affects me. It's that deception, that I may have long forgotten, which is caused by a person.. it as a betrayal, maybe? but it's still in me now... This profound deception has marked my life... like a wound that's still bleeding and is wide open... hurting me realy bad... This ancient pain, not healed, is like a deadly poison much more serious than one can imagine, a deadly poison that paralyzes me and annihilates my faculties against difficulties... How am I going to forget all those things... erase jer memory..? warghh... I can't think positively.. when I'm all alone... I'm still thinking 'bout the past.. and everything is not coming well.. DAAA?